russia

Julie

DSC_3070I hardly ever take portraits. I’m terribly bad at both photographic and social side of it. I don’t like the results, people don’t like the result and the process is just awkward. I try to avoid it (and working with people in general to be honest) but I feel uncomfortable about not being able to make portraits. It’s like singing – I can’t sing, I never did it and it disturbs me for some reason. I’m not sure I like this picture. But it must be better than my singing anyway.

MH17

We cannot choose where to be born, it is something we cannot get rid of. Wherever I live, whatever language I speak, whichever football team I support, I’m Russian, I will always be whether I like it or not.
I can’t express what I feel seeing hashtag “terrorussia” these days, it’s mixture of pain for my country, hatred towards it’s political regime and shame of being linked by my red passport to that brutal inhumane force that is involved into this terrible massacre.
I don’t know who is guilty, and no one will probably ever know the truth.
But I personally feel this guilt and shame. I’m sorry.
I don’t think it’s possible to forgive us. whose silence and submission allowed to kill other’s children.
Whoever did it, it was us by just being russians.
We will have it on our consciousness forever.

I don’t know whether I should feel like this or not, It’s just the way it is.